Today marks the beginning…the beginning of many things.
The first day of the month, the first day of the financial year, the first day of the fullmoon, and for me the first day in a new home – and the first day of the rest of my life.
I realise that this is a glib and overused term – but my intention here is not to be flippant.
I have been following astrology with a great deal of interest of late – and it seems that my life is closely aligned with the stars.
There is some talk about this year being the completion of a cycle that began in 2012. This cycle began with an event that brought about a major shake up in the way we live our lives – and this year we come full circle to bring us back to ourselves.
This could not be truer for me. With a cancer diagnosis in 2012 that turned my life upside down, and some recent major “displacement” issues regarding my living arrangements, I can begin to see this circle coming back around on itself.
The great discomfort and uncertainty that has been my constant companion since April this year, I can now see as a shift in my perspective; an overhaul of my own internal belief system.
As I arrive on this journey back to myself, I am once more paired back to just the essentials – but this time I am changed – I’ve been here before but without the experience of these past few years. The highs I have discovered in the pursuit of my path urge me to “go round again”.
First time round took me 30 plus years to be stripped back to just me.
Second time around has taken 3.
So as I come back full circle, I am celebrating all that I leave behind.
The pain and the struggle
The uncertainty and discomfort
The self doubt and sense of lack
I will not carry these with me on the next cycle.
My spirit will be lighter if I free it from past sorrow and pain.
Just one month ago, I was in mourning for all that I left behind when I moved out of my home of 13 years to live in suspended animation.
And now that I am coming home, starting again, with less and yet also with more, I can see that these things are not to be mourned – they are to celebrated and then lovingly released.
