The Art of Honesty

Time for a little hands on heart honesty…

The Universe has currently got me by the short and curlies!

That’s right – you heard correctly – I am admitting to be in a situation in which I have no idea how to get through.

And that is the point. NO. IDEA.

 

You see I’m an ideas kinda gal. I love love love to think things through.

I’m in my element when tucked up inside my head rationalising and reasoning and looking for an answer. I often pride myself on being able to second guess all of the possible outcomes and have solutions and plans to each and everyone.

 

This mode of operation has stood me in good stead over the years – even before the arrival of my kids, I was rarely left standing scratching my head if something “unexpected” happened. And if I was, then it didn’t last very long before I had my thinking cap on and I had myself a way through.

 

This time around though – it’s a different story.

That old saying “Be careful what you wish for” is something that keeps popping up – several times a day during this “unexpected” period in my life.

 

At the beginning of this year when I mapped out the year ahead, I found myself a little excited at the thought of moving house, selling up and buying a new place in which to build our dream.

 

I knew that it would require a shed load of hard work and would result in some huge changes for me and my family. But change is good – change results in growth. 

I’ve had some first hand experience of this in just the last few years – with life being transformed – and the results well and truly eclipsed any kind of magnificence than I could have imagined.

 

But in the very middle of it all – it really sucks – it’s painful, scary, lonely and at times overwhelming.

I have been exercising my intuition muscle enough to trust that this is not how it ends. I know there is much growth to be gained from this time and some hard-felt lessons to be learned.

But here’s the thing – the biggest part of this lesson is to surrender. And part of that surrender is not to have it all figured out – not necessarily to identify the lesson and learn from it quickly and move on.

 

With each and every plan I formulate and share with anyone who asks, the Universe smiles (probably sadly) at me while shaking her head as if to say – LET IT GO.

And so it continues. I feel as though I have a long list of demands of what is important and necessary for me to live my life and enjoy it – and slowly the Universe is directing me to cross those things out until I whittle it down to just a few.

 

And what then is the purpose of sharing this with you all?

 

First of all it’s not a plan – it’s an admission – which is in itself a surrender to what is at the moment for me.

Second of all it is a step forward on my path – to declare that my online space is part of my future and my present and is one of the best things to have risen from the ashes of my last life transformation.

And last but not least it is to share one lesson that I have learnt during this tumultuous time –