We interrupt your regular program

It’s heading into the business part of the year for me now.  An exciting time with both kids off to school and a chance for me to dive in, get clear and submerge myself into my business, my purpose and start shining my light out to the world.  On the flip-side though life just got that extra bit more complicated on the home front – with all the extra organisation that goes hand in hand with small people attending school.

Up until this point though, I have seen this day to day to do list as an interruption – and add to that the interruption of the kids themselves – with the questions/ the brotherly scuffles that require a referee and of course having a household of male folk relying on me – well my frustrations are always bubbling away under the surface.

Of course I’d love to be writing, painting and creating in every moment I have – but I have begun to see this interruptions as a little important message for me.

When I am in creative mode I have usually travelled inwards for a fair distance – getting out of my head and in touch with my soul.  I love the space here within.  It is light and fresh and filled with a summer breeze and all the truth and joy I could ever desire.  So it is no wonder that when I have a small person standing at the top of the tunnel – shouting (or whining) my name, I feel frustrated.

So how then could this interruption be seen as an important message? Something to provide insight and a better way?  Something to create a difference?

I once received some advice from a wise man when I looked at a photo taken of me about 10 years ago and commented on how young and fresh I looked. This clever soul said to me – “Imagine in 10 years from now – when you look back at a photo of yourself from today.  You will say exactly the same thing.”  I understood immediately to appreciate what I have now and to see my life in review and how marvellous it was from the eyes of my 80 year old self.

I then tried a little meditation where my 80 year old self was sitting in the audience watching my current self on stage – performing in my everyday tasks.  Not the painting or the creating or the writing – but the making lunches, washing clothes, helping children with homework, helping them tie their shoelaces and all things I had considered “mundane”.  And what I discovered was a little mind blowing.  My 80 year old self was overcome with emotion – of joy and pleasure and the tears started to roll down my cheeks – because I was witnessing my life.

Those things which I thought we interruptions were actually part (a huge part) of my purpose.  My interactions with my children and my husband are a huge part of my purpose. In both marriage and motherhood I made a committment. And those interruptions are a reminder of my commitment and deserve my attention.  My boys and man deserve my attention.  

And what then of the message these interruptions have for us?  Following my intuition (constantly practicing/honing this skill) I came upon this…

When you get that call from the top of the tunnel – head back out into your life – but don’t close the door – take with you the light, the breeze, the truth and joy.  Don’t keep them locked inside. Your family needs to see and feel that for themselves. They too are worthy of your light.  You can let your soul shine out in other ways than your creations/writing/painting etc.